A Special Man

On Sunday, May 2nd one of the best men I have ever known ended his battle with cancer.  He was 44 years old, a father, a husband, a teacher, a brother, and my uncle.

I haven’t written about him until now because it just didn’t seem appropriate. I say that because his cancer isn’t what should be glorified, but his life. I refuse to let cancer define my memory of him. Cancer robbed him of his pride, of his health, but that it robbed all of us of him, is the greatest tragedy.

I was just about five years old when Tim McMullin came into my life like a force of nature. I think my whole family fell in love with him right alongside my aunt Meg.

Within moments of meeting us, he had already let my brother rub his bald head, and had us dangling by our feet like monkeys while he tickled our bellies. It took him no time to start calling my grandmother Mom and my grandpa Pops. We all couldn’t get over his wide easy smile, and his quick, full laugh. He was always laughing, always smiling. He radiated energy and happiness. He radiated life. He was a breath of fresh air.

He made my aunt Meg happier than any of us had ever seen her. She glowed in his presence.

We were all thrilled when he finally proposed. We couldn’t wait for him to be one of us, and I was beside myself with joy that I was going to be the flower girl. I was in a real wedding party!

To this date, their wedding still stands out as one of the most special moments in my life. When the big day came, I was nervous and shy and I was uncomfortable with everyone telling me how pretty I looked in my little white dress. I will never forget the moment when Uncle Tim, sensing my discomfort, pulled me onto the dance floor and let me dance with him and my auntie Meg in front of everyone.

He went on to become a major presence in my life. It wasn’t long after he married my aunt that they had a baby girl. They named her Kathleen–or Katie, for short–and I was absolutely smitten with her. I loved her like she was my own sister, and I still do. I was beside myself with joy when they decided to move to a house 10 minutes from mine.

I don’t know exactly how much time I spent at the McMullin’s house over the years, but it’s sizable, I’m sure. Connor came along three years later, and I took any chance I could get to “babysit” them, even though I would have done it for free in a heartbeat. My uncle Tim always insisted on driving me home after I babysat for them. Those car-rides were always a treat. He would turn the music up and rock the steering wheel along with the beat.

He was so much fun.

I can say without reservation that my Uncle Tim was the happiest person I have ever known. I can’t explain his presence any further, however, without listing a bunch of hollow adjectives that could apply to anyone. But for those of you who knew him, you know what a special man he was.

I’ll keep this short because without a doubt he would call this a “buzz kill”.  Besides, I’m not one for tear-jerkers or sympathy moves, but I know my Uncle Tim would be honored, proud, and flattered to know that I took the time to write this. After all, he believed in me to a fault.

Rest in peace.

His Obituary: Timothy E. McMullin

How To Be

Four years ago, in the wee hours of a cold night in the far-away land of Syracuse, New York, “How To Be” was born.

My roommate and best friend, Breanna, and I were trying to make sense of our messy little freshmen lives. At that point, most of our drama surrounded the opposite sex. What an awkward time that was. Awkward, but awesome.

We realized sometime around 2:30a.m. that we kept repeating ourselves. So I sat down with my iBook and we made a list of rules to live by. We named it “How To Be” and I printed it out and taped it to the back of our door so that we would see it every time we left our miniature dorm room. I have to admit, we thought we were pretty clever.

“How To Be” moved across campus with us the next year, and took up residence on the back of our new door.

The following year we both studied abroad in London, and our beloved little document didn’t make the journey with us.

I admit, I forgot about it entirely until our senior when Breanna asked me for a copy. Looking at it again I realized that everything on it still applied. The rules were still darn good. So once again I taped it to my wall.

Although the original document didn’t make the journey with me to New York, I have a copy saved to the desktop of my shiny silver Macbook.

And now it will live for eternity on the information super highway.

Here it is:

HOW TO BE
(The Amassed Wisdom of Breanna and Meghan)

  1. Exert Self Control (sex, food, sleep, burping etc.)
  2. Be Open-Minded
  3. Experience New Things (life is too short)
  4. No Regrets (no looking back!)
  5. Begin Each Day Anew (no day but today)
  6. Confidence is KEY (in ALL aspects of life. People see what you want them to see)
  7. Play Hard to Get (self-explanatory)
  8. Be Able to Laugh at Yourself (nobody likes a tight ass)
  9. Surround Yourself Only with People who Make You Smile (life should be fun)
  10. Be Open to Criticism (sorry, but you’re not perfect, embrace it)
  11. Don’t be Afraid to Open Up and Let Others In (nothing risked, nothing gained)
  12. Be Able to Forgive Yourself and Others (get over it!)
  13. Take Responsibility (yeah you messed up, who cares?)
  14. Pick Your Battles (it makes them sweeter and they will have a greater impact)
  15. Never Believe What a Man Tells You When He’s Under the Influence of Alcohol and/or His Penis (please…duh!)
  16. Have Realistic Expectations (you’re gonna have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince)
  17. There is NO Room for Jealousy (you’re hotter than she is anyway)